Okay, let's start with school. Since last week, no... the week before... Anyway, since the week before I had another series of exams. Second midterms. The week before last week I had Analytical Chemistry I second midterm and English midterm. The Analytical Chemistry I midterm was okay. My mistakes were silly, but overall, I feel okay about it. As for the grade, well... 75% is not bad. Let's just hope that I'll study more for the finals. I should start studying for the chapter he was teaching after the midterm. Speaking of Analytical Chemistry I, there's a project paper. Oh, man... I forgot about it. Awhile ago there was a girl who asked me to join her doing the project, I gave her my number and told her that she can just miss call me so I can have her number. Days goes by, weeks passed by... I forgot about the project and the worst part is that I even forgot who the girl was, what's her name and how does she look like. I feel bad for that. When I remember about the project, I checked the .pdf file the professor sent about the topics. In the document, it was said that the deadline is the 20th!! That's Tuesday the week after. Oh, man! And we were only 2 people. We needed another 2. When I sent an email to all the students in the course saying that I don't remember her and all. Got a reply... two actually. One is from her and another from a girl who wants to join us. Of course I took the opportunity. I sent another email to all students in the course to get the last member. Got a reply for that, of course. We haven't chosen a topic yet. Man, how last-minute am I?! This will be a lot of work plus the studying.
On top of Analytical Chemistry I project, there is the second term paper for English. An individual paper in which the topic must be related to my major. Seriously, I don't want to write about Chemistry? Can't I just write about anything else? Apparently, it's a must for the topic to be related to your major. OH! The same week as analytical midterm but the day after, I had my English midterm. It was a short, exam version of term paper 1. It was okay, or so I hope. There was a problem at the end though. On Saturday I was sent an email by my teacher that I didn't sign the attendance sheet. I got really confused. I mean, I did take out my ID card and signed, or so I think I did. Come on... What happened? I think I really did take out my ID... I'm very thankful that my teacher defended me. They thought that someone else did the exam under my name, but my teacher gave them my first draft that she has with her and made it as a proof of my handwriting and writing style. I hope it's going to be okay. The midterm holds a lot of marks.
The week before analytical and english midterms, I caught a cold. Wednesday... After I arrived home from chemistry lab class, I felt really cold. I slept it off for sometime. When I woke up, I was shivering. When I went to bed, I resorted to having a wet/damp cloth on top of my forehead. It did me good. At the morning I was so much better. I had a chemistry quiz that morning so I had to come to school and attend the class. My mom tried to keep me home. Saying that I didn't study for it and it won't do my mark and my health good... Anyway, I insisted on coming. I didn't tell her that I was so much better. Of course there was still a light headache and a sore throat, but not much fever. Then she told me that she'll take me home after the quiz, so I gave in to her for that negotiation. Plus, I didn't really want to attend the Calculus lesson. Hahaha I got 9 out of 10 for that quiz. Good, eh? XD
Speaking of Calculus, the class I missed that Thursday... well because I missed that class, I had no idea what's going on after. I have to reviiiiiiiseeee~!! More like, study! Plus the homework for those part is due Sunday 11 pm. Aaah... Also, wait... I think I'm confusing the weeks... Okay, I had analytical and english midterm last week. Not the week before. Okay, that is now clarified. Anyway, the Calculus exam I had last Tuesday was okay. I'm saying okay because I'm not quite sure that my answers will get me good marks. I'm saying okay because I could attempt to answer them questions. Attempt, yes. There was a question I was confused. My mistake was so silly!! I differentiate constant number to the number itself instead of 0. Seriously. Anyhow, I'll see how I did when I get my marks and see more of my mistakes. Yep.
The day before Calculus second midterm, Monday, I had Statistics exam. Nothing much to say about it. The exam was pretty much okay. I hope my mark for the exam won't disappoint me. Usually on Mondays I have no classes. I came early for Calculus and Chemistry tutorials. The rest of the time, the free time until the time of the midterm, I sat in the central hall, studying and revising for the exam. I just sat there. I didn't move around. Or walk around. Just sitting. And revising, okay. It was for quite a while and I got cold. Really cold. Really! I think the exam venue wasn't that cold, but as the result of just sitting in cold, I often shivered. Or was the venue cold? I can't remember. For the Calculus exam, the room was really cold. I don't understand why do they have to make exam venues cold, freezing. That's not funny. WHY?! Is it probably because students' brain works better in cold? That doesn't really make sense to me, but I was never one to know about biology. Does that make sense? Oh whatever. :P
For the last two (?) weeks, I've been engrossed in Ferbella fanfictions. When I opened FanFiction.Net, I searched for Phineas and Ferb fanfictions. I think the first fanfiction I read was a one-shot but I can't remember. The first awesome one was Enough by Lilly-Belle and it was the most awesome one amongst the others. Really. Top. Awesome. Fantastic. Exciting. Dramatic. Oh Ferb... XD I took some for keepsake. I included in my fanfiction project. The project is not for school, of course. It's just for me. For keepsake. Of course the complete ones. Or the multi-chaptered ones.
Yesterday, I came early for the project discussion and lab class... Ummm... I heard that my friend made a CV. It was cool. Seriously, my CV would be a mere one page or even less than that! XD Mine will be so boooooooooring. I don't do work. Gosh, how am I supposed to get a job later? Oh well...
Okay, some facebook statuses...
When you hand in the exam you just finished and on the way home you keep on thinking of your mistake or the question you are confused about, you finally realize what did you do wrong and couldn't help but feel silly at your mistake. You just feel like laughing more than depressed.
Yup. That's how I feel a while ago when I realized that I have made the derivative of a constant number as the number itself instead of zero. Oh man... I bet that the teacher will be very disappointed. Hahaha
Wednesday at 22:26
I think I'm going to come down with a cold soon. If I don't get better tomorrow morning, then I'll have to have a whole lot of rest tomorrow night until Wednesday. Thursday the latest.
I don't get sick very often. When I do, it doesn't take long until I recover. The last time I caught a cold was 1 week and a half ago. 23rd of April. After a lab class, I got cold after I got home and slept it off. By the time I woke up, when I had to pray, my feet were shivering and there was a little headache. I felt both cold and hot. When I went to bed, I had a damp cloth on top of my forehead and slept with it throughout the night. When morning came, I felt a lot better. My throat was rather sore, but after a few days I went back to drinking cold water. Hahaha I guess that's why I'm coming down with another cold today or tomorrow. Also, I've been sitting in a rather cold room. When I got out, the hallway and center hall was also cold if I kept on sitting, without moving around. I've been freezing since the early noon. Hahaha
Tuesday at 19:07
What am I saying. Am I even making sense? I don't know. I just feel like babbling. I should have used my blog, but it has been weeks and I don't feel like blogging. Not yet.
It's like journal. A diary. My comfort sanctuary. My solace, without any kind of grief. Nothing important. More like, a scratch book where I put things I'm interested in. Maybe like one of those decorated notebooks.
But... A diary when read in the future, will serve as a time capsule, right? While reading, you feel that you have gone back to the time of the happenings and events written. Some kind of important events and happenings in life. But what I wrote didn't really hold any significant importance. I doubt it will serve as a time capsule in the future.
I'm sleepy. I must have been babbling about gibberish matters. I'm tired. My mind must not be functioning well. I don't know.
Okay, this is the last of it.
For now.
04 May at 22:33
Reading fanfictions does have its consequences. The weight of such consequences depends on how seriously you take it, or how strong is your mental.
Like, for example... One with short-memory. Getting confused between a pure fanfiction scene and a canon scene. That's not so heavy of a consequence. Just a trivial one, I think. But, when one thinks about it, not being able to remember and quite lay a finger on it (is that the right saying, I don't know) can be rather frustrating and annoying. Especially when one searches for the scene in the episode summaries. Hahaha that was exaggerated.
Or... A certain pairing sounded so perfect in fanfiction world, but in the actual series, it can be rather hard to accept. But that mostly go to Cartoon than Anime. It's not hard to ship an Anime pairing and be fine while watching the series.
I don't know. That was pretty biased of me. I guess you can say that I do get confused with a canon scene and fanfiction scene. Also, I get disturbed when I actually see/visually imagine Ferb and Isabella together. I mean... They're a weird pairing, but fanfiction made such pairing possible and even quite pleasant to read about. Then again, that depends on how the author depicts the character as.
04 May at 22:23
Honestly, why is it that in the morning, when my siblings were already awake, getting ready for school, and I was still half-asleep, my mind seemed to be running some sort of calculation that I couldn't quite make sense of? Really. I was just trying to snuggle back to sleep, but my mind was like all numbers and calculations.
Well... The question should be, why not use the brain to study and take benefits from it instead of running incoherent calculations when I'm half-asleep? I guess my mind shut down its engine the moment Calculus is in sight. (Calculus can be seen? Sure Calculus problems can be seen, but what about Calculus itself? Okay, that's beside the point.)
Why is Calculus being so mean?! No... Not really. It's just me being lazy. Yep. Totally.
Am I making sense? That, I'm not quite so sure about. Gah. Alright... Sorry...
04 May at 22:08
What do you think your alternate universe self is like?
I would love to think that my other self engages herself in social activities. Or at least a little more active than I am, but still lazy. Attending a rather big school. Not famous school or anything that's so fancy. Public schools would do. Has her own bedroom. Knowledgeable about the world. What else? I don't know. Experience romantic situations? I don't know. I hope she's not self-conscious though. And has some sort of character integrity. Something of her character that stands out, but not by so much. Prefers to be in the background than the front spotlight. The spotlight of the background would be as far she could reach. Am I making sense?
I guess that's a little too much ask, eh.
02 May at 23:30
Remember, to be odd is one of the greatest pleasures that life offers.
-Weird Heart
02 May at 18:47
The moment when you get confused with a fanfiction scene and a canon scene.
What is canon? Did I use the term in a right way? I don't know. O.O
30 April at 20:15
The Story Behind The Portal. Alternate Phineas and Ferb characters. Like those in Phineas and Ferb The Movie: Across The 2nd Dimension.
I've decided that I can't read it anymore. I can't continue. I can't keep up with the series of events. And I don't think I'm quite fond of the characters. Ferbella was just too... I don't know. Their relationship were served on a golden plate, just like that.
Anyhow, just checked my gmail and saw Six Half was updated. Whoop YEAH! But I'm supposed to study. Owh shucks.
29 April at 20:54
And now, I'm only left with one Ferbella fanfiction. Oh, man...
I favourited some of them. Hmmm... How about including them in the fanfiction project I started quite a while ago? Uh-huh. For keepsake. :3
29 April at 18:26
Why do I love studying at night and waste the daytime goofing and lazing around? Why do I love procrastinating so much or just simply being lazy???
This week should have been a busy week, but what have I accomplished so far?
Attending classes and sleep through some of it. Studying for tomorrow's exam/test at night when I had the day off. I haven't even revised for tomorrow's quiz nor paid much attention to revise Thursday's quizzes, chemistry and calculus. Oh, and English exam on Wednesday evening.
May I blame Phineas and Ferb fanfictions? I've been getting quite distracted with those lately. Since Saturday, actually.
Speaking of it, Ferbella is awesome!! Hahaha too bad there are not a lot of multi-chaptered with romance as the genre and more than 20k words. I've read some. I don't know... 4 or 5?? And now I'm only left with 3 more. Agh. By the way, Lilly-Belle's Enough is still the best!! Expiration Date and String Theory is the bottom 2 for me. Not bad, but just not so much for my likings. The Fourteenth of February, Beauty and The Beast andd Summersong were good. Enough still tops them all! Yay~
Anyhow, it is myself to blame. For succumbing to desires instead of burying myself in books like the nerd I should. Why am I so carefree? Do I want to risk it? Do I want to fail? ...do I? N-no, I don't want to fail!!! Uhmmm.... Whatever lah. :O
29 April at 00:43
"There is nothing wrong with a grown woman enjoying Fanfiction,..." - Candace Flynn (Soon to be Candace Flynn-Johnson) of Enough by Lilly-Belle, chapter 34.
Nailed it, Candace. Keep your spirit forever, Candace! :D
27 April at 03:03
"So I had the stupid notion that I should friendzone myself. I was going to just be a friend to you no matter what, so I wouldn't force you to choose. I wouldn't force you to break my heart. I'd take myself out of the equation." - Ferb Fletcher of Enough by Lilly-Belle, chapter 25.
27 April at 00:58
Someday... I'll earn enough to buy several Tenipuri jackets and wear it during winter without a care.
Without a care as in I'll regularly wear it throughout winter. Not ruining it. Of course it'll be ruined after a few years, but that's just how clothes work.
I'm broke. Not really. I have a few bucks, but that's about enough to occasionally have lunch at school. And I can't really ask for money from my parents. Not that we are poor, but it's partly because I just don't like asking for money and also enough money has gone down the drain for my tuition, daily life expenses and a lot to Otou-sama's project.
22 April at 00:56
So... Otou-sama offered me to take some web designing classes. I'm not quite sure whether to take up his offer or not.
You see... I'm in a dilemma. If I do take those classes, then I can surely improve my blog or something. I can make use and benefit from the classes. But then I'll have to work for Otou-sama and create a website for his project. I don't quite like the idea of having him as a boss (?). Plus, my lazing around time will decrease.
I am so bad. *sighs*
22 April at 00:48
Coz there's a blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow
Shining and shimmering
A blue sky waiting tomorrow
Waiting tomorrow
Maybe it's all we need
Oh don't you wash away that smile
You just look out the window and see the light
It's beautiful to be alive
It's wonderful to live a life
The sun is sure to shine for you and me
For everyone
So don't be sad
It's just a start of a new beginning in your life
- Blue Sky by Hale
19 April at 23:23
Watched Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs 2 with my little siblings. When it was finished, I tried playing some anime episodes or shorts that I downloaded and stored on my USB. Me and imoutou and whoever was in the living room watched Kuroko no Basuke NG-shuu. Otoutou, 8 years old, couldn't understand why me and imoutou were laughing.
When we finished watching all KnB NG-shuu, we tried playing other shorts. Like, Kyoukai no Kanata OVA/ONA. The third ONA/OVA had this guy naked, except for his scarf. I couldn't stand watching the short with my other siblings watching. Imoutou was saying along the lines that she could handle watching such scenes. I got kind of defensive and told her that I, too, can handle such scenes, but we are watching on the big TV in the living room, so we can't really watch it. XD
To think Free! Anime shorts weren't bad enough. Hahaha actually... the third, or was it the second FrFr, Rei was choosing which swimsuits would make him "utsukushii" and he consulted with Haru, Makoto, and Nagisa. At the end he chose the bright yellow pants/underwear, I don't really know what it's called. XD Then, the camera focused on it, which is also Rei's *ss. Otoutou noticed and laughed, "HAHAHA! His *ss!!"
I guess it wasn't such a good idea watching such anime on the big TV in the living room. It was my first time, actually. Oh well. XD
19 April at 22:45
There's this Indonesia's drama that's coming soon and the song playing during the trailers sounds just like the song that the guy played for his girl in a Line commercial. Or was it weChat? I don't quite remember. What's more is that the trailers made the drama look like a Korean drama, especially the male lead character.
I wouldn't want to watch it though. I'd be tortured with the usual Indonesian teenage melodrama stories. Such stories are irritating to watch.
The new -not so new- drama adaptation of a movie which was an adaptation of a novel, wasn't as good/artistic/educating as the movie. Really. There are more shallow scenes than the meaningful ones. The characters... Well, I guess they didn't come off as strong as the movie. Or maybe it's just me for having watched relatively short scenes of some episodes. But the love triangle is certainly adorable in some ways. Yes, a triangle. Outsiders - those with one-sided feelings - don't count. Hehehe
16 April at 07:03
I woke up at almost 12 at noon and slept roughly at 8 the night before and spent the whole afternoon and evening (from around 1 till around 8) reading Sophie Kinsella's The Undomestic Goddess.
Those were pretty much what I did the whole day. Not night, because Otou-sama scolded me in not helping him for his project. He told me to get informations on 101 countries he's planning to include in his project. He also wants me to manage the website he wants to have for his project. He told me to study the Ewisoft program and understand it. I really don't want to help. I don't want to give a helping hand to him for his project. Really. I'm really not interested in whatever he's doing. Is it bad for me to not want to help my own father? I think it is bad, but still... His project is too much beyond his... I don't know... Abilities, capabilities, reach, league, whatever. Okay, be creative. Do inspiring activities. Be innovative. Be initiative. But only when you can assure your family that everything will be okay in case whatever happened in the trip. Or when all problems are already properly sorted. Or when your whole family lives back in their home country. Or... Or... Whatever else. Really. If anything happened to you during the trip around the world, what's going to happen to your family? Your family lives in the land of others. What about your mother? What about your little kids who you should be taking care of, not just financially, but psychologically and physically too? Seriously, why didn't you think of doing these stuffs before you get a job abroad? Or better... when you got no kids? Or when all your kids have finished at least junior high? When you've got kids, you're not as free anymore. Your youth life is gone.
I got the week off and he occasionally pesters me to help him. I've lost 3 days of my short vacation. Not because of him, of course, but because I've been so lazy that I didn't get to do anything much. Like, updating my blog... or watch an anime... or read a manga... or... updating my blog... or... STUDY! Yes, study. Ugh.
Alright, enough ranting, I guess...
16 April at 00:12
This time I won't make any planning. I won't make promises. I'll just try to study and laze around.
Oh my glob!! Hahaha look at this picture... XD I can't... It's just so hilarious!! Hahaha I do not own the picture though.
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